Postmark May 4, 1899

Thursday Eve

My own Darling Nellie

Your very welcome & highly appreciated letter came OK this p.m.

Yes!! Darling I was badly disappointed yesterday & not so much so because you had told me you didn’t think you’d write. When Wednesday mail came & no letter from you I was sure enough crazy. I wanted to go out to Klondyke but was here alone & couldn’t. I could only walk the floor & wonder why you had not written.

Many things came to me all to assure me more positively that my love for you is true. Nellie there isn’t a question left to marry me & that is I fear you don’t & can’t love me as you should.

I only fear that you’l be dissatisfied & unhappy.

You say you are willful but can give it up & that will never bother us. No dear. Where this is love there couldn’t be any trouble of this kind. As for me I am sure I would be happy with you & would forever & to know were happy would make me happy but suppose dear you found you didn’t love me & that I wasn’t made of the stuff you thought I was & for me to learn this would make me miserable.

Darling you say you are expecting a letter telling you to come & teach school. What must you tell them. I have told you all I can tell you & can assure you that I meant all I’ve told you & of course what I’ve told you wouldn’t sound much like you going to teach school would it!!

I just learned today that one of my young lady friends will be married soon. A girl that has good judgement & we so often have talked about marrying & ect (I DON’T MEAN marrying each other) & we would always agree that it meant a great deal more for a girl than a boy for surely I think she is more than worthy of the man she gets however he is fine in character & knowledge. I only fear she’l regret it.

You had rather I’d prove untrue than unworthy of you.

Well now my dear girl I’l never prove untrue but I can never prove worthy of you this I fear you’l learn after it’s to late for you however I love you & I want you for mine forever & ever.

But be sure you love me & this is all I ask of you.

I was sure you all were coming up this week. Why didn’t you?

The book didn’t come any way. Don’t you think we have some more important business to attend to Sunday aft than going to S.S. Which I [illegible] you think should be attended to before it goes farther. So maybe if you don’t say to much about S.S. we can start with then go for a drive & come in home while they are all gone.

I’l try to get out there early & any thing you have on programme will suit me for Surely I’d as soon ask him before you all as not for I mean to ask him & I mean to get his consent even if I fail first time. Then you’l have to help beg so fix yourself for it.

Bye Bye

Lovingly
Glass

P.S. If you hadn’t written today you would have been a widow for realy I believe I’d have walked myself to death walking the floor with blues.