Orange Springs
July 4
My Darling
Your letter recd today.
No Nelly it isn’t because I am not well that I have been
writing short letters. I have always
been a mistery to myself but in this case I think I understand.
I have always been of a disposition to strive to succeed in
everything I undertook but have fallen short quite a number of times. Then I’m disappointed & when I’m
disappointed I can but show it. Such is
the case now.
When I left you I felt
sure I’d see you in two weeks. Now I
feel sure it will be two weeks longer.
Of course for this you are not to blame & I am ashamed that I wrote
you so often to come knowing when I was writing that you couldn’t come until
you were ready.
All last week I was in good spirits thinking I’d see you
soon & the short letters were written after all hopes had vanished. Consequently I could but feel disappointed
& my letters in spite of me would show it.
I’ve always been that way & can’t help it. Failure at any thing makes me wear a long face
& worried appearance.
Yes I love you & have put up with all your ever done me
& darling had I not known I loved you the diamond today would have been in
Mrs. Mcdonalds flower yard. There isn’t
many girls in this old world that ever spoke to me as you did & then have
my arms around them in 30 minutes time but this is past. Why mention it again.
It’s ok about your telling her about my throwing the
ring. I guess she knew something was
wrong the afternoon I sent for you.
I could have gone to see you this week if you couldn’t come
home had I not made on that sad afternoon a solemn vow to my God never to go to
that dear place again unless my business called me there or unless I was specialy
invited & I truly believe, that, is one vow I made my [illegible] that I’ll
always keep & it hurts me to think of the affair and that I’d act so silly.
You aught to know that there isn’t anything here to interest
you in a long letter. I stay in store
from 5:00 am to 8:00 pm from Monday to Saturday night. You know all this & there is but little
left for me know out side my work & don’t think I don’t love you when I
send a short letter.
It has rained a little bit though the [illegible] reports a
fine time & plenty music & ect.
There’s to be a dance out at Mrs. L. Friday eve and written
to Guy to come stay over night with me but don’t know if he will come.
Right here this afternoon a man came in & told me he
wanted to buy some cows and he had the cash
to pay for them. The word cash startled
me for a moment & then I remembered a man that had owed me (or [illegible]
Brother) for a piece of land sold him 3 years ago. Wanted us to take some cows for $50.00. So I told him I had the cows & had my horse
hitched up & away we went.
I found as soon as I got there that the man didn’t care
whether I took the cows or not as he wanted to owe me longer & I couldn’t
Jew him so I actually turned to the other fellow & I sold him $50.00 worth
of the cows at what I paid for them & all I had to handle or do in the
trade was to take the money. So now I
sit here with the cash in my pocket writing to my darling sweet Nellie. It’s 11:00.
Dear I would tear up first of this letter as I am ashamed of
it as its so gloomy & this part now seems so cheerful but I’ll let it go to
show to you the different effect failure & success have on me. Had I failed to sell the cows I know I would
have written a gloomy letter sure enough.
Darling did I tell you what Pa said Sunday? – Ha Ha
He said you were going to teach school in Ga this summer & asked Kate if
that wasn’t what Guy said. Of cours Miss
K didn’t know.
Gee whiz I didn’t say anything but I came near telling him
you’d teach at the Old Globe if you taught any where but I didn’t.
Now he’s a dandy isn’t he!!
Now you talk about yarns of all kind we told them Sunday as
we had lots of time together & I told lots more than we both know.
He promised to come to see me this week but hasn’t come yet.
I told him Uncle Paxton told me to come home & go to
work & he said he knew I was lying that Pax wouldn’t tell me any such.
Now hasn’t this been a glorious 4th. You might say I made a good sale. 3 small Fla cows for $48 cash.
That’s better than an excursion to the beach or all kinds of
picnics wasn’t it darling.
Well you should be with me tonight. God only knows how I love you &
appreciate you. I can never act so
you’ll think I love you half as well as I do because I am to stupid & let
things worry me that doesn’t amount to a thing.
Sometimes I can imagine all kind of things as to what you
are doing & why you stay away so long but when I come down to bolts I know
there’s no foundation to any such ideas & I cast them aside.
I am glad my [illegible] thinks so much of me but for Heaven
sake don’t because the fellow to come away down here to Ole Miss Kate. I was teasing her because she didn’t
acknowledge recpt of fan he mailed her but I am sure from what she said she
doesn’t mean to acknowledge. She is a
charm isn’t she. Do in every [illegible]
to her warn her not to let a cracker like Glass get a heart from her as I have
from you. She deserves a good man and
not a Fla. crock.
A lady told me today that now was the time to do our
quarreling & not after we married as she & her husband quarreled all
the time until they were married & then quit it for good.
I told her if we wasn’t doing it all now I pitied the after
marry quarrel.
Then I told her I had just heard you were to teach school in
Ga this summer & that we were broken up.
Yes dear you should take time as you say to prepare to give
your whole life to me as that is what you wrote for I will always want you with
me after we marry & you mustn’t leave me for even one day.
Glass must go to Nelly do pray that I may be a good boy
until you get here to take care of me for God knows I want to be. Then I’ll be in your hands & I know I’ll
be.
Regards to all.
Lovingly yours always
Glass
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